Love hurts the most, and women (I mean myself) put too much of effort in building the relationship, sacrifice my own time to travel just to see him. No one force me to do so , I did it with my 100 % willing heart. Yet, in return I don't get what I expect I suppose to get. You may say love is about sacrifice, don't expect return (not in money form), but this could be the greatest motivation for you to continue your effort ! Do you still treat her very well even she treated you cold as ice ? No, right? For me I won't, not to make people feel irritated and yet embarassed myself.
Different between man and women. For Man - focus on career, his family, quality time with buddies. GF is not always the priority, work, family and friends come first. For Woman- career is just a temporary role before enter into marriage. Might change job, relocate or quit it for her famiily, sacrifice time for kids or help up her husband career. Her Family- Spend more time with his family than her own family and is willing to do so. Visit them once in a blue moon if no where to go. Her Buddies- Not seeing them if BF is around, seldom bring BF to see them as she wants to have more private moment with him. Or, bf wants her to follow to his buddies gathering. Does it seems familar to you ?
That was me, do everything according to my heart, and yet being calculative for the return. Maybe I am too seriuos about this relationship and willing to put all my heart into it. Maybe I am not mature enough to handle a relationship wisely. I told myself, not to be selfish, not to be jeolous, try to be content with what you got. But, all these emotions comes naturally, my mum never taught me to be selfish & jeolous. Am I being selfish to have more time spend together, meeting twice a month is it too much ? I have no clue, whatever...*shrug*
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Another sleepless night
It is proven having lots of things on your mind late at night will make you toss and turn on the bed until 5am in the morning. And this is happened to me right now. Yes, I am here writting my first blog in Dec because I couldn't sleep and need to do something to pass the time.
I did not change at all in terms of my characteristic after 2 years of working life. My friends still treated me as cold as before and I really have no clue what to do. I always thought that there is a gap between me and them, a barrier where block our communication.
I am always the one who will be neglected.They stayed close to 3 of them and I am left out. I didn't enjoy today's gathering at all but I pretended to.What is my problem ? I have really tried my best to mix with them but the first sentences came out from her mouth really pissed me off.
Why should all of you have to cling together, why can't you all walk separately, why can't you look at me ?
There was one time I asked a master of feng shui is there a problem with my interpersonal relationship with others. He said not but all depend on one's attitude. I know I don't talk much but I have nothing to say. I really like to be surrounded.Why why why ?!!
I did not change at all in terms of my characteristic after 2 years of working life. My friends still treated me as cold as before and I really have no clue what to do. I always thought that there is a gap between me and them, a barrier where block our communication.
I am always the one who will be neglected.They stayed close to 3 of them and I am left out. I didn't enjoy today's gathering at all but I pretended to.What is my problem ? I have really tried my best to mix with them but the first sentences came out from her mouth really pissed me off.
Why should all of you have to cling together, why can't you all walk separately, why can't you look at me ?
There was one time I asked a master of feng shui is there a problem with my interpersonal relationship with others. He said not but all depend on one's attitude. I know I don't talk much but I have nothing to say. I really like to be surrounded.Why why why ?!!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Long-winded
Dedicated this post to 2 long winded uncle and aunty I met in Labis. Although you two will not have the chance to read this, but your behaviour are recorded in a blog forever.
1)Asam Fish Restaurant
Xien Xien came over to Labis for a holiday break. I have been telling him a nice asam fish in town and wanted to bring him there for a try. Dad wasn't joining as he was attending a wedding dinner, so left only mum , xien and myself.
The restaurant was full and we waited for so long. While we were waiting, one of the owner (around sixty)walked by and sit at the next table behind us. He has dislocated his right arm and his shoulder was wrapped up with bandage. Being concern, mum asked him what had happended to him, he walked over and told us the incidence. Apparently, he was involved in an accident where he fell off the motorcycle and caused the dislocation of his right arm. He visited both chinese medical and general hospital , however both treatments didn't cure his injured arm, so he's still seeking for a remedy. Poor uncle. Then he began to elaborate how he seek for doctors, treatments, who recommend him doctor, who gave the contact numbers etc. Then again he repeats the incidents again! I 'm the first to turned my face away, then followed by my mum. Poor Xien Xien has to listen as he was the only one has eye contacts with the uncle. blah blah blah. Finally the food arrived, we have a reason to stop listening to him. Then he left. I told Xien that he was really patient, but he said his mind was blank while listening, haha, funny.
2) Laksa Noodle
This family who run their noodle business in thier house is one of my favourite eating spot. I have been eating it since secondary school. Xien accompanied me here to have a try on the wantan noodle. As we seated, a lady from our back keep looking at our direction, she is one of my secondary school mate mother. I saw her but I pretended I didn't, Xien Xien noticed it and asked me to say Hi. OK, after saying Hi she came over, sit besides us and asked questions. You know why I ignored her ? Because she is one of the ampifier in Labis and love to talk and long-winded. Oh dear, both of us regretted and to my dismay our food was sucks ! Not going to elaborate what she actually asked, those questions surrounded : where is your bf from, when do u two getting married, I seldom see you in Labis, and repeated for few times. Sigh, food was suck and people interrupted us during our meal.
1)Asam Fish Restaurant
Xien Xien came over to Labis for a holiday break. I have been telling him a nice asam fish in town and wanted to bring him there for a try. Dad wasn't joining as he was attending a wedding dinner, so left only mum , xien and myself.
The restaurant was full and we waited for so long. While we were waiting, one of the owner (around sixty)walked by and sit at the next table behind us. He has dislocated his right arm and his shoulder was wrapped up with bandage. Being concern, mum asked him what had happended to him, he walked over and told us the incidence. Apparently, he was involved in an accident where he fell off the motorcycle and caused the dislocation of his right arm. He visited both chinese medical and general hospital , however both treatments didn't cure his injured arm, so he's still seeking for a remedy. Poor uncle. Then he began to elaborate how he seek for doctors, treatments, who recommend him doctor, who gave the contact numbers etc. Then again he repeats the incidents again! I 'm the first to turned my face away, then followed by my mum. Poor Xien Xien has to listen as he was the only one has eye contacts with the uncle. blah blah blah. Finally the food arrived, we have a reason to stop listening to him. Then he left. I told Xien that he was really patient, but he said his mind was blank while listening, haha, funny.
2) Laksa Noodle
This family who run their noodle business in thier house is one of my favourite eating spot. I have been eating it since secondary school. Xien accompanied me here to have a try on the wantan noodle. As we seated, a lady from our back keep looking at our direction, she is one of my secondary school mate mother. I saw her but I pretended I didn't, Xien Xien noticed it and asked me to say Hi. OK, after saying Hi she came over, sit besides us and asked questions. You know why I ignored her ? Because she is one of the ampifier in Labis and love to talk and long-winded. Oh dear, both of us regretted and to my dismay our food was sucks ! Not going to elaborate what she actually asked, those questions surrounded : where is your bf from, when do u two getting married, I seldom see you in Labis, and repeated for few times. Sigh, food was suck and people interrupted us during our meal.
So these are the highlight when I'm having holiday break in my hometown, nothing special happen but meet different people in small town. I don't blame them for talking too much , perhaps they just need a pair of listen ears, but not during my meal la!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
8TV catch up TV
I am still awake at this wee hour. It is not because of I can't sleep but I am busy watching all the catch up show in 8tv.com. Thanks Belinda Chee(Quickie host) who actually attached the link of 8TV in her personal blog. I have found another thing that makes me follow instead of going to bed. I gonna yawn in the office later. I would like to recommend The Adjuster which is currently on air. It talks about how an adjuster does the background check before he approve the insurance compensation the beneficiary suppose to get. I started watching from episode 5, which Belinda acted. The story is interesting and I love it very much. Good job! Besides this drama, I am following I Wanna Be A Model 3.
Hooray, Friday is a public holiday and I will drive back to my hometown (Labis). Have checked with all the old friends but none of them plan to go home ?! I always picked the wrong time. Nevermind, should spend some quality time with parent over this weekend. Looks like the 3rd episode of IWBAM has finished downloaded, I shall continue watching it, good night.
Hooray, Friday is a public holiday and I will drive back to my hometown (Labis). Have checked with all the old friends but none of them plan to go home ?! I always picked the wrong time. Nevermind, should spend some quality time with parent over this weekend. Looks like the 3rd episode of IWBAM has finished downloaded, I shall continue watching it, good night.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Saya Sokong !
I remembered 2 days ago when I was boring working in the office, one of the brand team colleague "J"came over and shared me a story. He shared me his past experience with our former PM - Mahathir at MINDEF (Ministry of Defence) before he joined the current company.This is how the story goes.
He went to MINDEF with one of the BP to do a presentation. He wasn't the presenter, but to help to turn the power point slides and off the light when BP is presenting. He stood next to Mahathir, shoulder to shoulder. All the important ministers and Datuks attended this meeting, Rafidah Aziz , the former head of Wanita UMNO was there too.
It was really a long meeting ,but in the middle of the meeting, Mahathir suddenly looked around for somebody for help. He called J who was just next to him and whispered to him. J quickly ran out of the meeting room. Everyone in the room was curiously. Who is this guy ? Why is Mahathir talking to him ? While everyone was still wondering. J came back to the meeting room and nodded to Mahathir. Then through the mice, Mahathir said "Saya sokong!" to Rafizah.
J was actually nervous when he was called, but he stayed calm.
After the meeting, all the ministers and Datuks came to shake hand with J has they thought J hold an important position in the company where Mahathir will seek advice. J was proud to himself yet he is still acted humblely to all the ministers and Datuks who came to say hi. Everyone was puzzled but he still didn't tell them what Mahathir actually whispered to him.
Are you curious what M actually told J ? Me too, is he really that powerful ? Why he looks just another ordinary man in the office ?After begging J, he finally told me.
Mahathir actually said :" Young man, the air-con is too cold, can you please help to turn it down? " J ran out to the meeting room and asked the staff to turn the air-con down , then ran back to the room to report to him. Then only Mahathir able to made his decision to Rafidah. Haha, seems like only me know the secret. What an important role, if not decision cannot be made. Good job J, you have make my day!
He went to MINDEF with one of the BP to do a presentation. He wasn't the presenter, but to help to turn the power point slides and off the light when BP is presenting. He stood next to Mahathir, shoulder to shoulder. All the important ministers and Datuks attended this meeting, Rafidah Aziz , the former head of Wanita UMNO was there too.
It was really a long meeting ,but in the middle of the meeting, Mahathir suddenly looked around for somebody for help. He called J who was just next to him and whispered to him. J quickly ran out of the meeting room. Everyone in the room was curiously. Who is this guy ? Why is Mahathir talking to him ? While everyone was still wondering. J came back to the meeting room and nodded to Mahathir. Then through the mice, Mahathir said "Saya sokong!" to Rafizah.
J was actually nervous when he was called, but he stayed calm.
After the meeting, all the ministers and Datuks came to shake hand with J has they thought J hold an important position in the company where Mahathir will seek advice. J was proud to himself yet he is still acted humblely to all the ministers and Datuks who came to say hi. Everyone was puzzled but he still didn't tell them what Mahathir actually whispered to him.
Are you curious what M actually told J ? Me too, is he really that powerful ? Why he looks just another ordinary man in the office ?After begging J, he finally told me.
Mahathir actually said :" Young man, the air-con is too cold, can you please help to turn it down? " J ran out to the meeting room and asked the staff to turn the air-con down , then ran back to the room to report to him. Then only Mahathir able to made his decision to Rafidah. Haha, seems like only me know the secret. What an important role, if not decision cannot be made. Good job J, you have make my day!
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Saturday Morning
What a wonderful morning, althought I am still dwell about what had happened yesterday, but I am going to my aunt house soon. Want to borrow The Twilight saga, really addicted to the novel, here I come. Ta.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Bugger
Well, let me tell you what had happened to me today. I came into the office late at 10.05am today. Then 10.15am I received an email from my manager . He has noticed me coming to office late than what he has expected . His email didn't sound angry but he started question me about my official working hours stated in my contract . OK, I knew who actually told him as he is the only one come early in the team beside the manager, and the email was sent immediately I open my notes. How angry when I was reading the email and I replied by saying my official working hours is from xxam -xxpm , and I will be punctual next week onwards. OK, know I know you are a back-stabber , I felt like I am under surveillance from time to time. That bugger keep pin point my faults and report to the manager without letting me know, what was his intention for doing this? I don't appreciate this kind of things happened to me as we work as a team ! I rather I was told face to face. Who else can I trust here as everyone seems nice to you but gossip and bitch about you behind you ? I admit that I didn't follow the house rules, but please do this with a good intention instead. Gosh, this is the real world, how frust I am.
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ICQ , Friendster, MSN, Facebook and now Blogger. The first 2 I have quit using it for so long as I don't find them interesting anymore. The following 2 are what I am currently using and I use it every single day to connect to my own network and to expand my network. :). I know I start doing it a bit late compared to my peer , anyway I did blog before in Friendster but procrastinate due to my laziness. For any reason that make me to blog again, I do hope I can keep my passion on and on .My blog will share you my experiences in this city , my thoughts, my view. Stay tuned until the next entry, ta !
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